So I was watching tv last night and saw a new show advertised called "Find My Family." You better believe this caught my attention as we are beginning the adoption process. The show, from what I understand from the commercial, is about birth parents/children reconnecting as adults. I had mixed feelings as I watched this. On one hand, it would be so fulfilling to be reunited with your child if you gave him or her up for adoption. And same for the child...to be connected with his or her birth mom again.
However, from an adoptive parent's view....how would this feel? Would there be a feeling of being unloved or unwanted? I don't know because I haven't walked down this path, yet. Still so many questions wandering around in my little brain. But my first take on this (from the promo I saw) is that I'm not sure I could watch this show. Too many feelings and emotions involved. Hits a little too close to home. For all of you adoptive parents out there....please let me know your opinion on how you would respond. What will you do when your adopted child wants to find his or her birth mom/dad?
I say this as I hear N and J playing trains and cars in the other room. Laughter fills the air. I have a security in knowing N will never have to search for his birth mom. There are so many fears and questions bouncing around in my brain....and I have to have the faith to leave them all in God's hands. If he is calling us to adopt, he will provide a way for us. It really is that simple. Yes, there will be ups and downs with this process. I'm not naive enough to believe it's going to be all sunshine and roses. But there has to be a point where I stop doubting and start trusting.
On this journey you'll probably have more questions than answers. Just keep trusting.
ReplyDeleteWhen Mia is ready to search for her birthparents, I'll do ALL I can to help her. I look at it this way, Mia's birthmom made a greater sacrifice than most of us could imagine. To me that is "Kingdom of God" kind of love. Mia's birthmom loved her enough to put aside her fears and trust someone else to raise her child. The least I can do is put aside my insecurities and press forward when she is ready. I think my fear is not that I'll be hurt, my fear is that Mia will be hurt in the process - that things won't go as planned - or worst yet, that she will never find what she's looking for.
ReplyDeleteYour concerns are normal. All adoptive parents have wrestled with this. Just know this, regardless of who is or isn't in the picture, you will always be your child's mom.
God bless & stay strong! God will do amazing things!
Ang